p u r e i c y

2011-02-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

New Blog:
pureicyx.wordpress.com

:)

2010-12-31T11:18:00.001+08:00

"Then you whispered that you loved me... at the homecoming dance. And I felt.. so peaceful.. and safe. Because I knew that no matter what happened from that day on, nothing could ever be that bad. Because I had you."

-17 Again

2010-12-20T15:52:00.002+08:00

XMAS IS COMING!
wanna take a break from everything :)
I have Big TV at home, no to be precise in my room!
It's mounted on the wall, and it's really fantastic as
I can now watch movies, view stuff from my laptop on the big monitor :D
The size of the TV is not that big actually, it's cos my room is like so small and cramped with stuff thus the TV seems overwhelming for a tiny room of mine.
Next item would be a PS3, cool eh. My brothers and bf will love it and I can invite peeps over too.

Japanese class later. damn lazy to go!

2010-12-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so upset. Today, I cried and it's uncontrollable. Tears just kept flowing. And just when you need someone to be there, it's always very disappointing. I lay down on my bed for 40 mins without doing anything. Drifted off to sleep. Woke up and once again it's empty.

2010-12-13T17:45:00.002+08:00

Measured my blood pressure today! Measured like 5 times. Cos it always produced different results.

1st time: 107/80 plus 2nd time: 90/60 3rd time: 112/80 plus 4th time: 90/69 5th time: 102/84

She took the last reading. It seems me and my siblings got lower blood pressure but dunno why mine fluctuates so much.

On a side note, I am bored max with work. It's like being in a loveless relationship, just going with the flow but not feeling it.

2010-11-08T14:22:00.002+08:00

Had a meaningful talk with a colleague today. Although it's actually more of her relationship stuff, but I have a similar problem(It's not related to my bf.) But I know I did the right thing. And even when I faced the occasional sarcastic comments. It's great to tell the truth. Even when it hurts. The brain is a most poisonous tool, churning out those thoughts that made me so sad.
I can't even give any advice as much as I want to. As I have none.

2010-10-29T17:29:00.002+08:00

Read about this guy who had a doll as his long term gf, could have marked him as an insane pervert (9 freaking years r/s), but in one of his 85 things about me, he stated these 2 points which I agreed with: 32. Due in part to the fact that I attended catholic school for nine years, I am now a proud atheist. I very rarely discuss my stance on christianity with people I don’t know, mainly because I’ve never met a sane and objective person who follows any one of christianity’s hundreds of sects, so we’ll leave it at that. 33. However, I will say that christianity has inspired some of the most beautiful works of art, music, and architecture in recorded history, so I suppose it’s not entirely useless..

2010-10-15T10:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday had lunch with my colleague and we ended up chatting quite a bit. that's why I always think pictures are deceiving items. Everyone can be smiling happily but actually they are hurting inside? Nothing new, I supposed. But we came to this conclusion: Before a couple gets together, the guy will promise the sun, moon and star, stuff like will never make you cry, treat u the best, always make time for u.........the thrill of the chase makes this babble apparent. Of course after getting together might be a whole different story. Like what she said, she felt cheated.

2010-10-14T11:29:00.000+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong. Pencil: I'm sorr...y cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time. Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

This is sad.

2010-09-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

The most important criteria is patience. Love is not an option, after all.

2010-09-29T09:21:00.001+08:00

Crying can be so exhausting.

2010-09-23T15:24:00.002+08:00

I started blogging like in 2003/2004 and my past entries are like crap! Cringing.

2010-09-23T15:24:00.000+08:00

I'm in love with this song, 即時生效!♥ so sweeeet.

2010-09-23T11:59:00.002+08:00

9 more days to TW! I'm glad to be on outlook course next week for 3 days. It just seems the week looks shorter that way. Out of the office feels refreshing. Today's Thur, can't wait for Friday! Yesterday, I received red roses from a colleague. Damn funny! We walked back to the office holding roses in our hands. Have to look ahead to avoid looking at other people's stares. It's a nice gesture though. I love flowers. Although they are expensive and never last, they are considered overrated and impractical, I love them! I feel like taking some time to immense myself in certain activities but I always get distracted by the things to do. Kinda frustrating at times. Now I know why people just give up their dreams and settle for whatever that comes their way. I must not be like that!

2010-09-20T11:12:00.002+08:00

Let me blog about some happy stuff.
The Taiwan Trip!!
I know it's crazy but it seems that I have only been to TW all my life. If we don't include M'sia and Batam. Besides TW, I would love to visit Japan, U.S.A and Paris. Ooh and Maldvies. My newest muse this year after hearing so many WOW! stuff about it.
It will be fun, exciting to have something to look forward to.

Gosh I just realised my hair is getting lighter.. It might be the darker shade of dye fading away or my hair is turning white! Horrors, I need to dye my hair soon!!!

2010-09-15T11:35:00.002+08:00

Saw a fren's FB status:
'If u found someone that can really change you, that is love, trust me!'
Very skeptical, as I'm sure he will go back to his old self very soon.
However, I do think there's a ring of truth to that sentence.
As in love can change a person, whether they are subtle or really major changes.

2010-09-07T14:05:00.002+08:00

I have been getting more active in twitter. The convenience of having an iphone around =P
Seriously can't wait for weekend. This will be a long weekend (Fri is a PH!!) but alas why so many sickening things to do. Looking at fucked up faces and doing useless stuff. Heh. Maybe I'm lazy.. but unmotivated should be the main factor behind these unhappiness.
Back to the topic of weekend! My relatives are coming over to stay on Fri morning/noon and leaving only on Sunday afternoon. That means everyone will be unhappy and restricted in some ways. My poor bros have to sleep in my parents' room. Imagine only ONE relative coming over, will they suggest sleeping in my room as I have a bigger bed now? Horrors.
My bf most prob cannot come over. My mother is quite adamant as she hates them to the core, and would never want them to see the updates of our lives.
THe problem is recently I have became somewhat of a 'homely' person. Partying seems more of a chore than fun sometimes. The trouble of preparing and prepping oneself? Maybe.. Or maybe I have matured in my thinking, but that's not really a very valid reason. It's just having fun and fun is not limited to people below the age of 20. Blog later shit

2010-09-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

People always want someone to understand them, maybe to listen and provide advice. Because the truth is everyone thinks they have the worst problems in life. That's why I say, it is better to keep to oneself to the things you strongly believe in as the words and thoughts(inner) only serves to pull you back further into the grey area or push you to hell for that matter.

It is very tiring to find out everything been nothing short of being disregarded as unimportant, however being assured as the priority. It's all crap talk and giving you momentarily hope so that maybe you will just shut the fuck up.

I don't have to prove anything to anyone. Being able to do the things I like,doesn't mean I don't work hard or spend frivously without a care for anyone. The next thing I know people would like to say "yes I understand but...", going on to their own views which simply tell me just jolly well give up and be practical. You don't have to be too explicit about showing, I can feel it.

I can sense others' feelings, quite well if I say. But I do not want to tell them I understand.. simply I have not been through that particular incident. But I listen. absorb, and to tell the truth I do feel pain, hurt, anger.

damn, I really wish I can be less sensitive. I can cry at a sentence I saw, spoken and sometimes at people's happiness. But I learn to hold it in..so the urge to cry will come in one sudden rush and I just can't stop when the first tear dropped.

Secretly, I wish I can die. I meant it when I said it. If only, that incident few years back has succeeded. It's so ironic, where I can give wonderous advice and encouragement to others but not to myself. Being increasingly unhappy is poison. Maybe, I should adjust my thinking to 'all my unhappiness towards life is unimportant'.

Being alone is good I guess. At least I won't affect others, being treated like a fool when I care because in the end they don't believe my genuine feelings, deemed as being ignorant, navie and stupid because I think this way and I don't do politically correct stuff. Someone once told me, "Those who really appreciate me will really love me for who I am." It's so hard because initally you can accept, but they would want to change you in the end.

I never run away when people I love are faced with problems. But I am terribly upset when they assume I will behave that way. Or maybe I am just an useless vase, too lowly to be worthy (in other word, stupid)to understand. Likewise I get upset when faced with problems of my own, I received no support or understanding. Just being there and talking to me would be enough. Just that I might not always response. Sometimes there are too many things on my mind. But seriously my heart is melting when I felt the care and affection. I am expected to recover with immediate effect.

From now on, I shall give whatever people wanna hear and see. I will stop complaining..maybe only to my hams at least they won't judge me. Life is never easy and I wish for the day it stopped.

2010-08-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

2010-08-26T09:11:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a tiring day. Mentally, rather than physically.
Because I thought I can be immune to the same treatment and just let it go but I can't.
And the same thing will continue to affect me.

Am I so hard to please?

2010-08-25T10:25:00.002+08:00

I'm super duper hungry now, at the time of 10:26am.
Been having stomachaches, that concurrently comes and goes.
maybe I should start watching on my diet. And to think I want to be dietician. That is one of my few dreams that I have.
Sadly, why didn't I enforce my wants in the past? Studying business is just something available, and general, the kind of do-not-have-to-think-much kinda course. What's more with my pending transfer, I couldn't demand more.

Later I am watching 'The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo' :) think it's gonna be a suspenseful movie, damn cool =)

2010-08-11T17:31:00.001+08:00

You know what I really hate?
people I care and love being friends with those I hate.

2010-08-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna close my eyes and fall asleep cos I miss you baby :)

2010-07-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

Stupid duck

2010-06-24T16:58:00.003+08:00

my arms are sore! Been packing folders for the sec students since morning. Took my own sweet time since this is like a last minute request from my colleague this morning. always kena this kind of thing.
tml! everyone will be on leave, nearly everyone, so I must 'hold the fort'. The preferred words used here. anyway i wanna blog about a story i had read somewhere. details would be slightly hazy but the gist is there.
This is the day I met Biscuit. It wouldn't be convenient to reveal his name here but this is the endearing name that I had used for him.
I went to a bookstore with the intention of looking for a fiction book, something to read to pass a lazy weekend afternoon.
And then I see him, in a casual white shirt, slightly rumpled, a bit smug around the chest, sleeves rolled, and blue jeans.
I was standing around the newspaper/magazines corner, and subtlely checked if he had a ring, and also whether he was reading a pervy magazine..haha.
We made friendly eye contact and began chatting. It was casual yet I felt enthralled to continue the conversation. And then, I found myself sitting in a cafe and chatted some more. He told me stories about his travels and also his experiences of life he faced in those places. I, on the other hand, gave some funny accounts that I could think of, igniting his burst of laughter which was warm and accomodating.
Then, he excused himself, quite abruptly.

2010-06-23T17:08:00.001+08:00

Today's weather is really cold! Rain and rain with lightning bolts!
level of motivation is low. stagnant really, for quite some time with alternating emotions.

2010-06-22T15:15:00.002+08:00

Just funny pic i got from FB. Lol, and that stuff is not chocolates isn'it? :S
And this reminds me of my cousin's blog! About her faci teaching 'sales mangement module'. The story goes where he first took out a banana and asked the class to sell that darn thing.Don't you think this is weird? I mean he could have chosen an apple or orange, at least a common fruit which won't cause turmoil in class. Anyway I can accept that. Cos it gets worse. He then asked the class what do they wan to sell. After seeing the fruit, of cos the class shouted, 'condoms!' And they were spot on. He really took out one, my god. Is he teaching sex ed? or maybe the school is initating some sex ed elements in their teaching materials. oh well. I shouldn't judge, maybe it is essential to use that as an example in class.

2010-06-14T17:17:00.003+08:00

suddenly feel like blogging, with no really strong reasons to do so. as you can see, I normally blogged when there's unpleasant stuff. however, I do have some nagging stuff at the back of my mind which are not convenient to be blogged out in public. what can I do to get this irritant/eye sore/SOB out of my mind/life? It’s something I have to deal with. Fast.
Things that happened since I lat blogged(surprisingly it’s only been slightly more than a week): Thought of buying a lappie but decided to do it later this year. IF I got the financial means, I mean I wanna go for overseas trips, and buy a couple of furniture and take up some lessons.

2010-06-03T13:54:00.002+08:00

I'll never be the sameee. Can't stop hearing this in my head. damn catchy lyric.

this week passes quite fast. an event(quite major) ended and went quite well. The attendance was the highest for the time being compared to other schools. :D Saw the embarrassing video too, I nearly tripped over while going to the stage to help lisa, asking ss to reduce her presentation time.
Not much food was wasted too. Thanks to someone who took..well ten over boxes home. -.-

The next day after the event, I am on course for MS Word.

The class is very small, less than 15. But alas I loved coming in late and going off early. It is very nice to sleep in during lessons too cos the room is so cold and the lecturer(indian) has a voice that can lure me to sleep.

Of course, one can't have much of a good thing and I am bombarded by work by my boss consistently. which kinda prevent me to avtually pay attention to class. Sux, as my test will be tomorrow.

yesterday I went to xl's house, you know to catch up and stuff. I brought puipui over:) Nearly cancelled the whole session cos I was pretty drained out from work and lying on the bed was such bliss but the thought of she starting work on Mon means we might not be able to meet up often and do those fun house thingy, made me drag my lazy bum and walk to her house. Inital plan was she coming to my house but I have such an itchy mouth(hands!) and sms the change of venue.

The main thing was we talked about some of my stupid, or rather guilable friends. conclusion: should i help, how much can i really help, are they worth helping? most people are stubborn mules who conceived a penchant for blind spots of mistakes which are always right in front of them. well, if i can really help, maybe I should..

my goodness. can the 'students' in the class stop asking stupid and irrevelant qns?? They are wasting precious time and I wan to leave early one! At least, ask qns that will come up in exams!

2010-06-02T14:27:00.005+08:00

5 Common Lies told by Women
Women are born natural liars. Make no mistake about it, no matter how you trust or adore her, all women lie in certain situations and your sweet angel is no exception.

Be it a white or black lie, big lie or just a small lie, whatever the case, certain lies occur much more often than others.

It’s however the duty of men to read and uncovered women dishonesty by first learning the lies all women will tell and how to handle them. After you understand the true meaning of each supposed lies that are coming out from her mouth, you will react accordingly so as to achieve a great communication.

The simplest of women are wonderful liars who can extricate themselves from the most difficult dilemmas with a skill bordering on genius.”

These are the 5 common lies told by women

1.“I’m not angry at you.“ This lie is one of the most commonly used in relationships. Typically, women who have been hurt by men in their lives, often inadvertently use this phrase as an emotional defense. Example, if a guy forgets his girlfriend’s birthday, calls her by his ex name or commits any of the other minor screw-up that most men do, women usually can’t just let it go. They usually dwell on it for certain times.

Instead of admitting that she’s actually quite hurt by his relatively minor offense, the woman will pretend that she doesn’t care at all. What she really means is that she does care, and very much but just doesn’t want to look too bitchy about it.

Lie Detector: This lie is extremely easy to pick up on because women barely bother to hide their irritation in this situation. As unfair as it may seem, they basically want men to read their minds and learn that, in this case, “No, I’m not angry” actually means “I’m pissing off and you better do some recovery on it.” Excessive eye rolling, mean tones and passive-aggressive behavior in general are dead giveaways.

How to handle it: Save yourself some time and headaches later on by calling her on her real feelings and discussing why she’s so angry.

2.“I don’t mind if you go to the clubs with your friends.”You’re in luck man. You have such an understanding girlfriend. Not quite, if this one sounds too good to be true. Virtually all women mind when their men go out to ogle other women at clubs without them. It’s only a question of how much they mind.

In general, women are extremely wary of their boyfriends being in highly sexually charged situations without them. Also, they hate to feel second best to a boys’ night out. In this case, she’s either telling one of the five lies all women tell to save face or to test you.

Lie Detector: This lie is usually a little bit more artfully concealed than the first because it’s a little bit more pathetic to own up to one’s insecurity. It’s best to just always assume that this statement is a lie.

How to handle it: You’re probably better off just not going. Ask yourself: Are few hours of entertainment worth weeks, even months, of bitchy comments?

3.“You are a great guy but I’m just not ready for a relationship right now.“Although at least it’s told with the best intentions, in order to soften rejection. It might be followed by an additional excuse such as: “I just came out of a bad relationship, and I don’t want to be hurt again,” or “I’m just too busy with my career right now to have a boyfriend.”

The truth is, if the woman is single and at all interested in you, she will certainly make the time to date you. Which women wouldn’t want a great man? It’s that simple.

Lie Detector: Does she seem uncomfortable, avoid eye contact, talk too much, and come up with numerous excuses?

How to handle it: Let it go. Don’t bother letting her know that you see through it. Take the easy way out by pretending you believe her for your own personal dignity, and just walk away.

4.“Let me pay the tab tonight; you always pay anyway.”Not true. Although this lie doesn’t apply to all women, most still do expect men to pay for things, especially if the man asked them out in the first place. They will secretly think that the guy is cheap if he wriggles out of the bill on a regular basis.

Men should always at least offer to pay for dinner if they have asked the woman out. If she protests vigorously, then relent and offer for the next treat; if she just protests casually, she’s only doing it out of politeness, pay for it.

Lie Detector: If she says: “Oh, I’ll handle this,” but doesn’t even make the motion of rooting around in her purse for her wallet, it means that she has no real intention of paying.

How to handle it: Always, go to the date fully prepared to pay for the whole evening. In later stages of the relationship, you can work out a fair way to determine who treats who when, but in the early, critical dating stages, don’t risk looking cheap.

5.“That was the most awesome!“This lie falls under the broad category of sex lies. Because girls have this tendency, they also tell guys whatever they think they want to hear (like they just had an orgasm), just to make them feel good about themselves.

Other sex untruths women often tell are the following: “I only orgasm with you”; “You are the best”; “Yes, I came”; or “I’ve only been with X number of guys before.” (They will decrease their actual number of sex partners because they’re worried you will think they’re promiscuous.)

Lie Detector: When it comes to sex, that most sensitive of topics, it’s safe to say that you should take most things she tells you with a grain of salt.

How to handle it: You shouldn’t be asking her to rate her sexual experiences. That’s just in poor taste. If she offers you one of the lies above on her own, however, laugh and change the subject, as if to say: “That’s flattering, but I don’t really take these things too seriously as long as we’re both happy with our sex life.”

Be a Human Lie Detector Machine Now that you know the five lies all women tell, be on the lookout for them, and react accordingly. Once she learns that you can’t be tricked, she’ll be more straightforward with you in the future.

2010-05-26T09:52:00.002+08:00

Long weekend is coming! However, just like before every good thing, we need to experience shits first. Certain things can really dull my mood. It's like a total dud. 1) Contispation 2) petty and anal people 3) disappointments due to expectations(not high) not being met. Anyway, today is wed! Wrote the above thing yesterday but had no time to post. Today I am going eat yummy french food and PH :) The day suddenly seems very long ahead. Many things to settle but there are no confirmation yet! Today I am going to be an invigilator for a class. hope it won't be bad

2010-05-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

You know I keep a journal, and you've told me you'd never look in it because you respect my privacy. I wish you didn't. So you could read it and see that I need help, but I'm too afraid to ask for it.

2010-05-07T14:19:00.001+08:00

2010-04-27T13:02:00.002+08:00

Recently I kept bumping into my cousin in school. For 3 consecutive days(excluding weekends).
Pretty cool, I'm glad that shes like so active in her hip hop group. and her bf is okay. I mean from viewing the pictures online.
Can you believe that I have taken up hip hop classes before, during year 1.

I dont like woodlands :(
go everywhere also very far.
The train always so packed.
Even when you drive, there's jam once you left at 6pm on the dot.
It's so frustrating. Thus I always try to leave earlier.
Yesterday I left the office slightly earlier. Went to the lift and guess what!
I was on the 5th level, and yet I kept pressing the button 5.
A sane person will quickly realise his mistake, however I thought I need my staff pass to scan before I can press the button 5. haha.
End up the lift went to level 6 and went down to level 5 again.
At this moment, I saw 3 of my colleagues in front of me and asked, 'I thought u left earlier, why are u still here!'
so damn embarrassing =( at least I got a lift to woodlands mrt from one of them.

2010-04-06T11:10:00.002+08:00

Wow, Akon live in concert on 22nd April, Thursday at Fort canning hill. $108 for early birds, $128 for normal admission.$228 for VIPs (free flow drinks)

2010-04-06T10:06:00.000+08:00

My lunch and my 'china's fren's lunch yesterday!

2010-04-05T17:43:00.002+08:00

What a freak.
You are supposed to be ANGRY, not grinning away when I reprimanded you.
I care for those who I wanna care for, albeit not worth it.

2010-04-05T14:50:00.003+08:00

Some updates.
Recently my mood has been whirling and making sense of certain things. Why do all good things come to an end? I failed to treasure them and really regretted for all that I have not done. However this could be a blessing in disguise as the consequences of the other path remains unknown and could be undesirable.

I remembered starting writing in an organiser in late 2008, informally. Then I got a really chio looking planner(tw!) from bl. I love writing in the small boxes of each day. It feels so therapeutic; and I get to remember what I have been doing without too elaborate details. 2009 passes in a flash! Some major events, which are the turning points of my life, ceased to change the inner self. For 2010, I received a pure white planner :) which I have dilligently noted down meetings, birthdays, contact numbers etc.

My convocation is on 16th April, Friday! I am thinking to call just a few friends, or maybe just randomly asked everyone to come if possible. This is like so different from poly :( Everything is confirmed, like you know who will be going, you get to hang out with all your poly mates there. I even went to the hair salon with bala beforehand to do our hair. I still got the picture somewhere. My god, my hair was already freaking short; like a bob and I still went to curl it(temp of cos). I put on more make up than usual(more colors) and truckloads of hairspray! But it was fun. Guess, my uni convocation will be a relatively cold affair. Nobody I know is graduating with me for the same time slot and degree. Anyway I know who are my real friends if they bother to come.
Haha. Not that serious la.. Cannot call too many people too cos I don't have a concrete plan to carry out after the cermony ends! =(

I must try to control my emotions. I hate it when I get sad out of a sudden. Or at the slightest thing.

How true is this?

2010-03-17T11:13:00.001+08:00

2010-03-11T14:56:00.002+08:00

My birthday is approaching very soon. Can't believe that it's already March. At least it's something to look forward to. Cos there's no holidays in March!

2010-03-01T17:46:00.000+08:00

Can you see the heart- shaped yolk?

Lol.

2010-03-01T10:17:00.004+08:00

I hate puking.

It always lead to a painful back.

The worse thing is having the constant pain in my stomach, not menstrual cramps but the discomfort with the effect of swirling continuous but endurable pain.

Just hope it will subside soon. It is making me pretty restless. Ohh, I took some photos of my desk.

2010-02-16T22:59:00.003+08:00

bleh the long weekend passed just like that :(
but i enjoyed every minute of it!
Spent V day in sg, but had the touristy feeling.
The roads were totally empty and quiet at night.
Which is good, except when you're trying to find food.
Not many people celebrating v day this yr, I realised.
Cos it clashed with CNY?
And the saying that everyday can be v day if you...etc.
I'll say its crap.
It's like a birthday, a day to celebrate something significant, whether it is desirable or not.
Like a birthday, it doesnt have to be celebrated on a big scale.
And its something to look forward to. (whether attached or not)
Yesterday I went to my aunts' place alone!
I am so proud that I managed to find the house.
The gathering was surpisingly quite happy.
Arrived there looking like a hot mess. Weather getting so warm nowadays.
All my aunts commented that I look tall, taller than my bros. Haha.
and that I look abit like jamie yeo. omg not bad.
Another hk actress too. Hmm no good.
I am going to make an effort to call my small aunt cos she is always so nice to me.
I need to buy her a gift! Something practical. Money?
Actually I really don't like the idea of giving money as a gift. It's so.. insincere. Even if I really do need it.
Maybe less effort=less sincere.
=)
On a side note, I suddenly feel like perming my hair.
Lol.
Confirm will regret though.
Perm=must dye in order to see the curls=damaged hair
Hmmm.

2010-02-11T17:09:00.003+08:00

2010-02-09T14:57:00.004+08:00

Some childish pictures of me:

celebrated bl's birthday at Pasir Ris Park. took many photos at the playground and during our picnic(lunch n dinner) :D we ate sitting at the car park at night, which gave us pretty much stares and attention.

2010-01-27T16:35:00.000+08:00

I just shitted and saw blood on the toliet paper. =(

2010-01-27T09:28:00.002+08:00

Twitter :D Went to log in to twitter which has been quite some time since I lasted visited. Saw the tweets from KayKay, yes I've been following her. Anyway her tweets are super funny. "Everytime I meet a fucked up guy who has no reason to be, I'll just assume he has a small kuku." Imagine posting like 4-5 posts which are all related to the above statement. Someone had been pissing her off. Lol. I would probably be going on a short trip during CNY :D So can't join the OG bai nian outing, not fated to go, missed last year one too.

2010-01-25T10:40:00.006+08:00

My moblie phone is dying on me. =( It can auto restart for 5 to 6 times and eats up the battery life. I wan an iphone! But I'm being bonded by the contract for another year at least. Maybe I should give my phone to my parent then I sign up a new plan.

Cupcakes are my muse now. Eat cupcakes while drinking port. =D

2010-01-22T16:07:00.002+08:00

I need more sleep! My 8 hrs of beauty fix =( Yesterday went out with xp dear. We met at dhoby and proceed to paya lebar. It's really quiet over there, good for some 'me' time or in this case 'we' time. I dropped my laptop for the second time in 3 weeks. I was also horrified to see scratches(minor) on it. Been lugging this to work and home nearly everyday, super heavy but I wanted to use it for my personal and work use. Many friends have been asking me about work. Work is well.. work. For the longest time, I always thought I would not work a typical office job, waking up early and being in the claustrophoic space. There would be some considerations, of course. Some people are satisfied easily; following through the linear path.

2010-01-15T16:13:00.002+08:00

Can't believe I saw a friend marrying someone who is.. OLD. She looks like she's in late twenties or early thirties. My friend is the same age as me. There must be some catch somewhere. Im coughing like nobody's business now. sucks.

2010-01-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

How do you pronounce pureicy? pure-re-c? Thats what my friend read as. Its pure+icy. Simple enough.

2010-01-07T01:26:00.003+08:00

Seeing those taiwan MVs made me feel like going back there..

People gonna think im crazy but i really feel like

studying/working there.

So, I should try out this year, huh.

It will be really awesome if I were be able to

have a successful application.

I need to find some purpose in life.

Mine and not what others believe in.

Reasons to live longer.

2010-01-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

There are times in life when moments are perfect.When this happens, the camera is IXUS.

I need opinions on whether they are good to use.

updates.. Started work this week, its tiring.

Today, my bus broke down whilst I'm in tampines.

Decided to cab cos most probably would be late with

the huge crowd of students waiting for next bus.

Freaking exp! Anyway I shouldnt cab at all cos

I was the first one to reach.

Remember something, in the bus I heard the

girls behind me saying this was the 3rd time the bus

broke down this semester. Damn suay.

2010-01-02T07:11:00.000+08:00

2010.

The first day of the year was spent going to the police post & going powerhouse.

Will this year be better?

Come to think of it, there is no such thing as a good year.

Each year has its own ups & downs and I can't even remember

a particular year that is exceptionally good, rather events that

happened in succession after another.

What I learnt:

do not put your expectations on others in order to avoid disappointment.

don't get caught doing the things you wouldn't want others to know;

be less forgetful.

control my emotions.

2009-12-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

2009-12-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

This blog is so dead.

Im going to be change my blogskin!

No more white background, hopefully?

I realized it's more energy saving to use a darker background,

but white or lighter colors are totally nice. You know, like more pure. lol.

Today is a happy day for me :)

I received the call from RP, and thus I got a job!

Finally.

Been perplexed by friends asking me whether there's any news cos there's none.

So I spent like 30 mins msging them while lying on my bed ( Just woke up only).

It is a lazy day for me! It's rest day for me too. Settled some of the forms I need

to send back and did some random surfing for stuff I don't really need to know but

want to.

One little annoying incident though.

I was shitting in the morning when someone disturbed me with a phonecall. Not the caller, but the person asking me to answer the blardy phone.

For heaven's sake, nothing can be more important than shitting.

Can't help NOT holding back any unrefined language. Lol.

Should I delete my archives when I changed blogskin? I always did that

but I saved all the entries for my own private stash. A new blogskin means

a new start and this is apt as the year 2009 is coming to an end very very soon :)

2009-11-28T02:37:00.000+08:00

I can't believe some people can be so petty and so thick.

Stop preaching me with your theories which are totally

self-absorbed. You are just having pity for yourself, for

the things you can't get, the image you can't portray and

the way you can't get me to, I don't know, confide or really

warm up to you.

I never give fucking excuses and am very sincere.

to nice people who do not hide their true feelings.

Even if you wanna do that, at least conceal it well.

Telling me your acts of benevolence won't add brownie points but turns me off when you did the opposite.

I did nothing wrong, thus even if I had apologized, it was out of niceties and I

honestly do not think it was such a grave matter.

Please look at your status before giving such comments.

Stop expecting anything from me, and questioning the

thing I do.

I can only applaud at your courage of showing such outrageous reaction.

I swear I won't talk about this anymore. Just not worth it.

2009-09-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

Remb ne-yo, 'so sick'?

I found the girl version of this song.

If you're so sick of love songs.
So tired of tears.
You said you loved me.
Why ain't you here?.
I'm so sick of your love songs.
So sad and slow.
But I just can't turn off the radio.

It's very creative and damn nice. Wonder who sang and wrote the lyrics for it.

2009-09-26T04:17:00.000+08:00

I gotta feeling that tonights gonna be a good night That tonights gonna be a good night That tonights gonna be a good good night !

cant get this out of my mind :D

clubbed at butter n powerhouse on wed.

was kinda last minute and had to rush abit after dinner

with kk n gang. Luckily I was clad in appropriate clothes.

someone said that i look like dawn yeoh :(

damn funny. I got a lot of comments on me looking like so and so.

People beg to differ, of course. During my attachment, I got a

colleague's customer saying I look like... quan yifeng. WTH.

I nearly choked on my drink. Another one came from my ex-boss saying

I looked like a HK actress/singer. I was so excited asking him who was it.

It's.. kelly chen. I really don't think so and I had short hair, layered hair like

a guy at that time. But it is very interesting.

Next up, during my poly/uni days, and ktv sessions, people commented I look

like faye. Maybe cos they got the impression I always sing her songs

or I like to put on colored lens and makeup. You know, intense eye colors. :)

I can think of a couple more. But I dun think I wanna say it. :)

Had a little tiff with my gd fren. It seems conflicting opinions regarding the future

are bad. I wish she can put herself in my shoes sometimes. I hate the idea

of forcing my beliefs onto others. However I will state mine firmly and you

can't change them.

2009-09-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Everything is alright in the end. If it's not alright, then it's not the end.

2009-09-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

Mini lady gaga, how cute~mum mum mum mah!

2009-09-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

We lose everything when we lose something precious. When we experience loss for the first time. We stop caring. We lower our demands and standards and tell ourselves that we're growing up-when the truth is that we're slowly getting ready to be corrupted forever.

We lost so much that maybe we'll only be free when we lose everything. When we surrender to the artificial world, that's already a part of us. Maybe it's the resistance that hurts. One solution is give in, go with the flow, let things happen. If it won't make us happy, maybe it will make us less unhappy. The tough exterior of others remain undetected because we possess the same shell; we may not even notice the changes till it is a part of us, infiniteness that exist.

2009-09-03T02:21:00.000+08:00

im gonna be an uni graduate!

nevertheless my results are really uninspiring..

i will get over it. Cant do anything about it anymore too.

now that Im no longer a student, means time to

find a perm job or at least a full time job.

really wish to find something interesting, and fun,

exciting......... sounds like I'm going for a holiday trip. lol.

Or a meaningful job.

Last weekend doing sg sling! Shld take home more bottles, hehehe.

Drank it yesterday and was planning to keep the bottle but

someone drank it all and threw it away.. Im v v v sad. Thats why

I always finish whatever I buy asap. lol.

random chat

with fren saying

'i love ur piercing

and i was trying to look for tattoo'

why piercings=must have tattoo?

But I do like both haha.

I wanted one at the nape. I even got the design ready.

before im 18. But i procrastinated.

I dun like felicia chin. so fake and shes a liar, albeit a bad one.

how can one of the energy members like her?

seriously hope its not kunda...............i used to idolise him =(

Out of the 4 members, one is married, so hes confirmed not the one.

well. why they like to spread rumor and then say halfway one.

irritating!

Shld I buy hamster? I saw one really really nice, it looks like a mouse

but its a hamster(theres no tail), and its white n totally cuteee!

shit but i cant remb the shop which I had seen it. somewhere in town yeah

Oh yeah ever since I dyed my hair, people had been commenting I am

more tanned. ???

Even my fren's dad!

Kinda surprised. And since he won lottery, he gave me money.

super paiseh. kept pushing away his offer. End up I used the money

to buy stuff for my friend, his daughter.

2009-08-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

SICK!

Yesterday was sheer torturous. Had this excruciating backache, stomach and slight fever. Wanted to vomit but I resisted the urge to do so; being I hated the feeling of it.

Thus this was binding on me the whole night and I kept crying on a hourly basis cos it was so painful coupled with other thoughts.
I succumbed to it this morning though. What a relief. My bro heard it and said I sounded like a vampire evolving. Shouldn't it be a werewolf? Went to the doc too. Bad case of stomach flu. This is not the first time; better watch what I eat now. Was supposed to go to friend's house but ended sleeping and sleeping. I'm glad that I am feeling so much better now.

2009-08-16T03:11:00.000+08:00

OMG.

Just saw someone's profile name as 'Bala Ah Huat'

Bala, my sorta nickname.

Ah Huat is my father's name!

Lol. It just made my day :)

2009-08-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

HOTMAIL IS A BITCH!
I cant read any of my mails!
And I really need to read them now for my
job thingy and other private stuff.
I HATE my co-ordinator la!>br> He took leave for the next 2 days and
expect me to do everything for work
this weekend. And hes supposed to pay me
tomorrow! The worst part is he or rather
the people there like to give me last min
information. Maybe I should do that too.
Last min call in sick.
AND Whats wrong with kids nowadays.
Recently a guy from TP added me in msn.
I really have no idea how he got my email add,
but hes damn fucking irritating. Shall not go into
details but hes a manipulator! The worst kind
of people in the world!
Which brings me to another group of highly irritating
people. Not saying things directly to me and doing
it discreetly like through msn nick or friends or whatever
outlet possible. Thats why I will never show that I know
cos you don't have the guts to say it to my face, IM not
gonna let you have the easy way out too.

OK ENOUGH RANTING
Next post shall be a happier one.

2009-08-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

woke up super early to go NUS today.
xl accompanied me as she had morning lessons.
It's damn hot. Drank plenty of liquids today.
Had lunch with xr n bx. Saw my airport fren
selling HP lappies! remy martin lol.
saw my sec sch frens too. Tml's trip to JB
is cancelled. :(
Landslide in tw! :(
My fren's uncle's resort was affected.
Oh someone added me in FB. Well, someone
I don't really like during my 1st yr in poly.
I remembered doing something quite mean.
1st yr I transferred to business sch and
thus had 3 different classes. One of the classes
was finance dip, which was not my form class(marketing).
This guy was in the same class, as an online student
meaning he failed at least one paper.
I hated that period having to run to many diff classes,
felt like an online student too. One particular lesson,
that guy was sitting behind and besides the door. He saw me
and opened the door for me. I saw it and totally ignored him and entered
by the front door. I was making a statement that I am not keen to
be friends with him. Lol. It was kinda funny really cos you see him
holding the door handle for nothing. Anf from FB I just found out
hes like 15 years older than me! So when i was 17, he was like 33.
god.
All of a sudden, I felt a bit guilty. Cannot be so mean to others. Especially
when they did nothing bad to you. Certain things I wish I could do it differently.
Being much more hardworking.
Studying the course that I really like.
Giving the other party the chance to explain.
Knowing and being there.
etc.
It's good to reminisce and probably learn something from them.
Just don't stay for too long.

2009-08-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

Woke up with a fiery temper. Reason being: interruption in the course of my short slumber! I hate being rushed for no good reason, hell even with a valid reason. Sometimes I have a hard time falling asleep. My sub-conscious mind might be manipulating my physical self to stay awake. I became a total log however when I’m knocked out, which is a good thing, won’t get irritated till the last hour of sleep.

Developed a bout of rashes on my arms, back, stomach and near the collarbone. It is highly due to the sake I drank. Can you believe it, of all things that is. Gonna swore off any alcoholic drinks for the time being.

I must be the blurr-est person ever. Two days ago, I took a knife from the kitchen to cut some foil thingy and left it on the bed. Today, while lying down I felt a sensation of a cool metal item and got a bit of a scare. I had been sleeping with the knife for two days!

2009-07-30T03:37:00.000+08:00

WOOF

2009-07-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

idiotic, two people said I don't look singaporean! one of the reason was cos I look pretty blur at times. well, thats bullshit. haha.

why do some people always like to rake up the past? Do they know this:
不屑紀念
Some things are not worth holding on to,
good things became memories
u will never be happy if u don't let go
letting go doesn't mean forgetting
but able to face up to the truth and
giving urself another chance and maybe, for that person too

2009-07-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

Totally at peace with my self today. spent the day in my fren's hse, doing nth much. eating lunch, reading magazines/books, looking at photos and laughing at others' misfortune. lol. I guess we can be pretty mean at times. =)>br> got a little black zara dress as a gift! I think this is the first item I've from zara? I got the classic black dress every lady should have in their closet now!

CLUB? but not this week!

The heat is unbearable! At certain times of the day, I would feel really hot although I'm not sweating but it feels so uncomfortable. The other day, I decided to drink beer! Thats what guys do when they reached home after a long day, right?
I went to chill the bottle and drank it soon after.
That was the first time I felt beer was really nice when it was really cold. But of course, maybe the reason is hoegarden that makes it all the better.
I really really wanna eat durians! I wanna dye my hair, maybe black? damn I always go for extreme colors, maybe brown would be a better color. whatever, deciding tml! super hate the roots growing out now.

They can take tomorrow and all the plans we had made, they can take away the music that we never played, all the broken dreams, just take everything, but they can never have yesterday

2009-07-20T03:33:00.000+08:00

hehe. singapore sling singapore sling singapore sling

2009-07-18T01:41:00.000+08:00

saw an lunatic singing in the bus today, mostly jay chou's songs and su da lu! What's wrong with kids nowadays, high stress levels must be getting to them. anyway I take back my words, he might just be the answer to singapore's Jay chou, in a bad way. lol.

2009-07-15T02:23:00.000+08:00

Shall I blog about my Taiwan trip?
Life there is good since it's supposed to be a holiday. :) I remember not getting enough sleep except for one day where we had the 399 buffet. first day is club, where the best part is the freeflow of drinks which however proved the demise of others. A lesson learnt: don't drink on an empty stomach. :D we left quite early like 2 or 3? clubbing over there is definitely more tiring but a more stirring affair.

best shopping bargain is wu fen pu! for guys and gals. We went there twice. It has a spiderweb concept, so we have to make choices on the turns at a cross road. Do expect lots of motorcycles n cars from behind.

we went taichung for the theme park on the 3rd day. I did not know that firstly we have to wear swimming cap, secondly swimsuit. I mean I thought I could wear it inside without taking it off. I ended up buying a new swimming cap and swimwear(they even helped me sew the hemline and gave me a free swimming cap when i had already bought it earlier on). Why swmimming cap? I just found out that it is to prevent hair from clogging the drainpipes. I obtained a slight tan over there without realising it until I came back. Damn and I thought I am snow white. lol. The shuffle we witnesssed between the cab uncles was another incident. Night activity was holiday ktv. we got to sing from 11pm-6am. I think all of us slept for awhile. But I only slept at the end ok! Before that bx and I sang like that was our concert night, I remembered being v tired yet v hyper. On a sidenote, its really cheap ktv-ing over there. The system is better too and the songs are in the original key.

I bought many many gifts and stuff for my personal use too. damn high, lol. I made decisions quite quickly. Saw michelle chia in one of the night markets. she was super friendly. The ferry ride was awesome, the atmosphere in the dining place in fisherman's warf was delightful, listening to songs while dining was pretty cool. I remembered our badly written song dedication message in han yu pei yin and mandarin. Forgot how to write bei pan de pan and wen lan de lan etc.
haircut on the second day and second last day! bao's cute hairstylist and xr's shuai hairstylist. maybe i should have cut my hair after all. but I nv see any cute guys already, and they might ask me perm or do other stuff to my hair and i am broke already on that very day. We watched an entire HK movie at the salon and drank red tea and milk tea. LOL.
How about the not-so-good and sad part? having constipation for 7 days. those who experienced it before will know u will feel bloated and sluggish sometimes. This is aggravated by peeps going to the loo to shit frequently. ended up going to 7-11 to buy this sachet that can remove my bowels naturally. It works and it tastes really nice like yogurt and I added milk to enhance the taste! The remaining 2 days I did not shit though. Their 7-11 sells everything, i swear. masks, makeup and all kinds of bian dang. Their food is nice and actually tastes fresh.

i must improve my mandarin! Im totally in love with the song momo. I know fei lun hai is not exactly the best singers around but the tune of the song is nice kinda touching. Which makes me think which would u look for in a song first. the tune or lyrics? after some deliberation, I think I would actually listen to the tune first. lyrics, you can always manipulate it to ur feelings. the tune is the body of the whole song, transmitting the hidden emotions if you listen carefully, which would make or break the song. becos words are empty promises.

2009-06-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

one more day! Im gonna get a haircut over there, nothing too drastic maybe just a trim of the fringe. =) pc lent me her camera n Nike bag haha, damn nicee. sure buy for u the cd and the other stuff u want! feeling kinda nervous, a bit apprehensive cos will it be fun as the first time? Should I bring my boots over there? Is anyone even wearing them? i got the extra space anyway! Im packing quite light, theres like plenty of space left, am I missing something? I wanna blog some things but I don't want certain people to read. I HATE my friend for giving me crap just now. Maybe I should decline the invitation after all.

hate people texting 'dude', 'duh' It totally makes me feel like an idiot. And tactless words/actions never fail to keep me from a distance away.

2009-06-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

24th June, 4 more days to tw =) I need a new phone badly, currently using the old one which has connection problems sometimes. And to think of it, maybe I was robbed! Cos how can the wire snapped right? Something or someone with brute strength, or nimble fingers. ate lots lots of durian today! damn niceeeeeeeee but the smell lingers on your fingers. this fruit is seriously underated in my list of fav fruits. everyone knows I love strawberry n mango right. don't really like orange n watermelon. blah blahhhh

2009-06-08T15:14:00.000+08:00

aww updates.

work is darn boring now!

this morning received a call from a Japanese who speak so incoherently, I had huge difficulties understanding. At least he was more polite than the bitch I spoke to earlier on, told her the BOSS IS NOT IN upteem times. She insisted and was fucking rude. Totally spoilt my mood for the day. Her last sentence was ironic, 'You should have told me earlier that the boss is not in.' Someone needs to dig their ears and listen!

haven been blogging since last mth was the Exams period, being stressed is an understatement where I was mainly unfocused, and very unconfident. But it's over! And I don't dwell on things that I cannot change. I must really thank peeps who tolerated my incessant whining, heh. and lp for coming to my house at night to study with me, regardless of the fact we spent much time sleeping and I started studying only at 7am. last min studying is my forte! however the bad part is I totally need to sleep adequately, >7hrs. I admire people who can mug whole night without sleeping, how can?

woah guess what? The boss just talked to me and asked me whether im from nus/ntu cos his son saw me and find me v familiar. I saw his daughter and sons this morning. Must be realllly nice to be rich! And I saw his son a few times before today! Didn't know he is the boss's son, a bit dao, the sort that will snort at my mistakes.

taiwannnnnnnnnnnn, 16 more days! I think I might have enough if i scrimp and spend lesser frm now onwards. :D

2009-04-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

ureshii desu!

current greatest muse is to listen to fantastic songs with strong guitar influences.

I got the feeling, of strange exaltation, that was indefinable towards the approach of a major modulation. Fancy something with no expectations or whatsoever has its own way of fitting in. Hope is there after all, it's the process that hurts.

lost job opportunities: 2! All because of school! been trying to cut down on spending too, but next week is kinda packed. Must cut! I got 2 job offers from ter, tommorrow must call! My memory really sucks sometimes. Another thing, I really should calling people 神經病. Even if they really are. lol. this weekend I have full day lessons, thus i'm not going with ky and gang. Will be dead tired, seeing I have to wake up early on both days. party pooper. =(

I learnt to let some things go, not ignoring it just nonchalance because it's not worth it.

2009-04-05T01:37:00.000+08:00

dreadful dream I had today!
to be fair, it actually was quite logical and had a storyline.
I was the main actress. Lol.
getting reprimanded for wandering around without notice.

Something funny happened today. I boarded the bus after school and was standing as there were no
seats available. I was standing in front of the exit door, in front of the green prority seats. Then, after awhile, the guy sitting on the outer side offered me the seat!
I was momentarily stunned. Cos, 1) Do I look that old?
2) Do I look that young?
I shook my head vigorously.
But he then stood up and let me have the seat.
I had no choice but to accept the seat. =( Shitt, I forgot to say thanks.
damn embarrassing.
If im not wrong, he and his friends should be in the same school as me. Their conversation could be heard clearly with me previously standing near them. Lol.

2009-03-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm OFFICIALLY going tw in june!
Having déjà vu of the last time I went to central to deposit the cash. wahahah.

But of cos this time I was already bathed and dressed not so shabbily as I was planning to go out. But I have to proritize, right. Lol.

Hais I can't sleep for the last few days! Cos i'm scared. I can stay wide awake playing with my phone's games till wee hours. yesterday I called my friend to chat.

2009-03-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

If you want to exercise power and break somebody's will, it is more gratifying to break a strong person's will than someone who is broken easily.

2009-03-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

I got a free miniature absolut raspberry! I bought Jacob's creek shiraz cabernet vintage 2006. its value for money considering the concentration.

2009-03-17T16:37:00.000+08:00

Once again I'm at the airport!
Yesterday went chinatown to return my uniform and found out some interesting stuff about my vendor. Like she resigned, shes going to be a PI and she had been in the police force for 17 years. Thats why so fierce. Lol. But she asked us to add her on facebook. Haha.
Then I went down to school for a study session. Of cos ended up nv study much cos jer suggested going to Bedok 85 to have our dinner. I NEED TO STUDY! haha.
I love bak chor mee/kway tiao.
The stingray sucks though. Not really up standard.
After dinner, we were in a dilemma on where to go . went to the airport in the end. and gh provided this idea of not going home and staying there to study since they have a test the next morning.
The laptop became a precious asset.
Lol.
Then halfway through, we watched SAW! I never watch it before man, cos i thought is those v gory and no brainer show, but I have to say its pretty interesting and sick in a perverse way.

haha, im sure they will say 'wtf' when they see this.

my cake and soup. see now that I got a better camera phone, I began to take photos of my food too. LOL.

2009-03-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

First and foremost, I have to say Im freaking tired! haha but its too early to sleep now.
When im tired, I tend to stone and do nothing.
I stoned too when Im thinking of important things.
I want something badly but I have no means of doing it.
I need help from others, and I hated it.
Its killing me akin to a deliberate and gradual death.
And now it affected me in nearly all aspects of my life.
I can't let go but I can hide it.

Im falling sick. haha. My blardy face is all red despite no make up, and im feeling kind of hot, the warm, throbbing feeling which makes me feel uncomfortable

2009-03-12T01:43:00.000+08:00

im going to put my studies aside for the time being. totally not in the mood. swore to delete frens who put anything studies-related. LOL.

met up with my sec frens today. went K and then dinner at this place called Yuki no Yaki. another fren recommended one BUT she never come today. So if the food sux, im gonna call her. Haha. But it's quite okay. Theres like d.i.y ice cream but you have to pay extra $2. We did not try it cos we are already quite full. anyway whats sweet was I got early presents. a really chio mirror cum powder compact case and my lao po's bag and earrings. But I really love the time we spent. haha. esp lao po cos we have been quite distant for a pretty long time. only one thing spoilt my day. that phonecall. enuff'said.

2009-03-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

received my 1st present! its a nice brown dress. :) had kfc for dinner. haha. and durians in geylang. its damn nice but veri filling. and we got durian breath. haha. theres 2 irritating girls sitting behind us, and one of them said (in malay) that she smelt durian! What acute sense of smell she've got. Lol. And then another girl started singing the song unwell! 'Im not crazy, im just a little unwell, right now....' Crazy people over here!

2009-02-28T02:32:00.000+08:00

todays a very disappointing day. think i'm not going taiwan anymore to say im not sad is bull. end up spending alot today.

Oh, todays my father is v cute. he called and im the only one at home. He forgot to bring his keys. My brother wont be back for at least 45 mins. And I need to go out the very minute. Guess what I suggested??

been reading too much la pi xiao xin. i told him how about I put the keys in the flower pot. omg and he agreed. Im quite surprised. and he actually laughed with me. :) it warms my heart. at least we did not get into another unpleasant talk.

tml's my mum birthday! veri broke man. haha. just realised my hair is like no blonde. its like brownish with a little blonde undertones. no more lian hair, huh. lol. never got haircut today cos i really dunno what i wanna cut. maybe i just let it grow first.

stupid sh msged me to patch up with him, i mean be friends again. Haa hes not my bf, but he acts like one. last time ask me to fuck off, no way im going to talk to him. but guess what. think Im soft-hearted. sure i can accept his apology but we can never get back to being good friends.

I miss my mistress. haha. I cant tell her about the taiwan thingy or she will kill me for it. 'u promise to go europe with me. taiwan u went before already, why go again.' i think bernard kept bullying her la. need me to save her. i received a postcard! damn nice, picture of a leopard or cheetah since I like cats. But haha actually quite different leh.

I feel like playing pool! my pool table is rotting at home already after a long hiatus. shall wait for my bro to come back and play with me.

2009-02-27T03:54:00.000+08:00

recently got to know alot of new friends. lol.

am i really going to taiwan this coming june? hope so. if not, i wanna get a tattoo. i got the design since i was 18. Haha but theres lots of deliberation.

I got a friend who asked me to go tw in dec! He will drive me ard since he got a license over there. =D of cos, I have to think about it first. I really dont think i can go Europe. People, give me some lucky numbers please. I need to buy TOTO soon. Lol.

i stopped working officially. and i kinda miss the people there. like phillips, angela, etc. But most of all, I missed drinking the champagne <3

i hate pathetic people.needy people. can't they get a life. Life isn't about one person, man. most of all selfishness. Can really see and feel this in an individual. Some things I know, I keep it in my heart. No point making a big fuss since selfish people equate to stubborn mules. They think they are always right.

normally im happy. just like to blog this kind of frustrating things here. I like to entertain people by bhb-ing and talking nonsensical stuff. wah lao. why am i typing all these shit at 4am. =D ciaos, sleepyhead.

2009-02-24T02:13:00.000+08:00

white rose means purity!

2009-02-24T02:08:00.000+08:00

2009-02-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna spend my night in the living room cos theres a huge cockroach in my room. dammit. I hate cockroaches! I hate the fact that I'm scared of them. My plan was to sleep early today! like before 2am. Lol. now i wonder when i can get to bed, which I cant, without a peaceful mind. damn i need energy for tml outing. =) prelims are coming once again. as usual, Im still slacking, but this time Im like working, it drains my energy to study man. I got a paper on 14/3. Thinking whether to take it anot cos the day before is the day I get older=(. My birthday is on a friday. wahaha 13th friday. whoever says its bad luck can erm.. eat your heart out cos im a lucky bao bao. haha. Theres 3 13th fri this year, feb,march n nov. of cos the other 2 not important la. =) wahaha.

'The last time I freaked out, I just kept looking down, i st-st-, stuttered, when you asked me what I'm thinking bout. The next time we hang out, I'll redeem myself. my heart can't stop till then.'

2009-02-08T05:43:00.000+08:00

back from clubbing with xp and her friends! since my hair is wet, I decided to kill time by blogging. hehe. guess what? I saw may and her cousins at dlbO today. such a coincidence! met some super funny guys, which I mean by funny in a irritating and scary way, not the 'ha ha' kind. stupid guy wanting to buy drinks for us,but behaving in an obnoxious way. i think im kinda high after drinking martell and tequila shots. supper at bugis. Darryl drove me home since he stayed in tampines too, but of course even he stay in other parts, shld offer us a lift too. :) I shoud organise clubbing session for our OG. haha. <-- may's suggestion.Lol. backtrack a little. went to liane's 21st birthday party. its really quite far but nonetheless I will attend if I can :) me and xr left first and we did something to the guys. actually its meant to be a joke but it also contains our true feelings. Lol. earlier on i met my bb to have lunch and shop awhile. wanted to buy this brand of polka cards for my little brother =) *Potatoes are cheap in Switzerland! damn my brother just came back at 6am. dunno go where hiao. hahaa

2009-01-22T01:46:00.000+08:00

xl is going to Switzerland in like ten days time! awww will definitely miss her like crazy! she's a fiercely loyal friend, one you can trust and also bitch with at all times :) and the most important thing, she always keep in contact regularly, unlike those who only find me when they have problems, want me to buy something, have nothing better to do. =( Fortunately, I encounter not much of his shit but still it happens.

i totally love green tea ice-cream. but baby hates japanese food. =(
I've been skipping ALOT of classes. It's no good man. Lol. It's either something cropped up, or Im like super lazy to go. The thought of travelling so far puts me off. Serious stuff aside, cny is approaching! I look forward to r.dinner. :)

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2009-01-17T03:28:00.000+08:00

I'm out of a job! Well, sorta. t2 wine shop is having renovation for the time being. However, I agreed to replace c.koh in t3 wineshop.
on a side note, what do people mean when they put their status in an open relationship? Does it mean they are together but free to flirt around? I guess that depends on individuals. But I think it should be a situation in which couples agree that it is acceptable to date or engage in intimate activity with other people while maintaining a relationship with each other. How can like that? Lol. But it's quite common. I seriously don't belive you will only love one person in your entire life. And.. I belive in this saying, 'once a cheater, always a cheater.' Same applies for liars etc. Unfaithfulness is the pits. Time is also not that good an indicator to determine the degree of love. I believe it's the chemistry, it's either you have it or not.

I did a quiz in facebook Just have this msn chat with a friend.

2009-01-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

working at t2 departure wineshop now! i miss t3. lols. its only me and a SA in the shop. *yawnz* saw a really cute guy from maldives. i really like the way he chided his little brother not to fool around in the shop. hee.

Lost my voice on new year! went to topone ktv for the first time on the eve. The sound system is quite good. Had steamboat pior to that, was working pior that. Had potluck at the airport, the food was pretty good, curry chicken, beehoon, some nyonya kueh, choco cake etc. I think one of my colleagues went for their fourth to fifth round. LOL. rsm was mag and she was super friendly to me that day. My throat was not feeling too good few days back so no surprise I lost my voice that day. Actually, I have not recovered fully yet. I sang until very xin gu.

sidenote, went batam on the day before. Ate A&W! the chicken meal plus the waffle! It was kinda of daunting cos we are travelling by ourselves. But I like the feeling of exploring new places. We bought vodka mix! But we cant bring it back to singapore rite? I am not very sure. So end up drinking all of it before going back. *burp* Lol.

2008-12-18T02:40:00.000+08:00

Work sux today! =( got tested by my agent. asked me so many questions and some I have no idea at all. Kept talking to the remy promotor though.

On a happier note, I saw ben at bugis. saw the mad rush of fans waiting at t2 for, guess who, fei lun hai.. Sadly I am working at t3 so I did not get to see them. But I saw a celebrity in t3 too! Howard Lo. The guy who appeared in the reality show 'An eye for a guy 2'. He was wearing a cap when he came in so I cant even see his face. However he stood near my champagne so I quickly went to serve him and to my surprise hes that guy on tv. Lol, he got a strong angmo accent. Hes cute! =) And yes, he bought a champagne from me. Lol.

2008-11-25T02:44:00.000+08:00

my blog is sorely neglected. Lol.

Been busy lately, working and outings. Studies is also neglected, since im the kind to skip school for work/going out. Just got next month schedule and its like double the working days compared to this mth. Its all at T3 though. which is considerably more slack. Haha. I must save money already la. So that I can really fulfill my overseas trip after exams. =)

I really like one of Jay Chou's new song! Two words, mid tempo song. So nice, keep repeating that song. His songs remind me of someone.. Someone who can sing like him, someone who encourage and ignite the passion of singing in me :) However, hes not mine anymore..

plays 'm2m *The day you went away*' lol.

Been thinking of it, maybe it's my fault too. and hes like the only person i don't cringe at for his whatever movement and speech. Not that im judgemental but some things people do totally get on my nerves la. tactless comments for one. and then laughing like its even funny. Oh yeah people who laugh too much, or at every single minor thing. It's seriously not funny and damn damn irritating. Maybe they think they are cute. Excuse me while I puke.

Alritey back to the topic, god he doesnt make me cringe! Almost a first. Lol. And he listens. Very important. Most people talk more than they listen. And disregard what you say, to move the focus to them. Or maybe ask you some stupid questions where the answers are so obvious. I don't enjoying blogging and reading blogs as a matter of fact. I rather they update me in person la. People who blog regularly with loads of photos are narsasistic in my opinion.

I super detest people who play music loudly in the bus, train whatever place they are in. One time I can't stand it and unconsciously said 'wah lao' quite loudly. Damn funny.

22 nov 2008-

a date to rememeber.

something i may regret yet its definitely memorable. im not telling cos it might jinx things up. in fact i might be the one doing so in the end. But sometimes the more I think of it, the anger in me fueled up. I must have my own stand!

2008-09-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

we have decided to go our separate ways.

All I can say is we are really not suitable..

and it took these 2 and a half months to determine it.

Don't ever call me again thanks.

You know, when they say bad(or good?) things come in pairs or double trouble, I guess it's true!
And I was sick again this morning.
cancelled my plans for today.

Brand new Start, gonna be happy like an happylime. lol.

2008-08-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

Gift from Korea!

2008-08-13T13:33:00.001+08:00

Gotta try to update today! I'm slacking in the office. Aiya super lazy to type everything too.. my vacation have been really busy yet fulfilling. Im so glad to find jobs after I finished the current ones, however I totally overspent again and now Im kinda broke. =( i can't even remember what I did spend on that made me so poor now. Shits.

Some of the major things that happened, mostly my first times!

140708- Bowled for the first time! It's true since I never participate even though physically Im in the bowling ground.. And.. I got beginner's luck too! Everytime I threw the ball, I could hear my friends giggling/laughing behind me. Hais cos they said the way I throw damn funny, and the impact is like Im trying to break the floor. Lol. Im going to get the video from my friend. ^^

150708-180708- FOC. Tiring but made some friends there.. I think the last day was more fun. Lol.

180708-210808 REDANG! Something I had been looking forward to for so long! However travelling time was super long by coach! We arrived at the next morning, where we had breakfast, then proceeded to snorkle. It was kinda fun. I saw corals, colorful fishes,and really large ones that looked capable of devouring us!
The beaches are super clear and blue! You can even see small fishes in the shallow parts. I swear I could just stay in the water the whole day basically just doing nothing. =)
the second day however was not as smooth sailing. I actually got sea sick and napped in the boat. And because of this, I missed the incident of my friend vommitting! Of course this is not why I want to see. But do you know the fishes in the sea actually ate the vommit, they traveled in schools at lighting speed, I heard. I woke up feeling super refreshed though. Lol. Went drinking at night, helped some of my friends to finish their drinks, cannot waste, their cocktails super nice unlike mine! I don't like bloody mary..
Shall upload photos when I reached home. If I remember. HAHAS.

240708- Went JB! Had a great time shopping, its my first time going malaysia with friends but the things there are so much cheaper! Esp the food!

260708- 270708- n.e.x.t challenge! This is something similar to amazing race, city venture kinda game. I was so psyched to win, cos I thought the top prize was 10,000 dollars cash! It was actually $10, 000 worth of total prizes, $3000 being the top prize where have to split for the 5 members in the team. But still quite okay rite? But our knowledge of Singapore like totally sux, and we ended up the last few teams. Hee. The experience is what it matters anyway. We are good in games like suduko, and more physical games that required teamwork. But to find the place from the clue was like the biggest time waster. =( I lost my ezlink card, atm card n my personal card in my MY melody holder! Im super sad, cos the ezlink card was my poly one and I cannot make a new one anymore- I called the cab company and xq even accompanied me back to the places we've been for the games. This was the not so good part. Fruitless trip, and I reached home exhausted.

280708- Started new job at Bugis selling Japanese make up and also beauty products (mostly hair). The cool thing was I got my hair and make up done by the people there everyday. The products are very sweet smelling, hmm i like! They said I did too mimimal make up of my own. Lol.. Oh and I got to wear a yukata! It looks like a kimono but it's not. I <3 the pink one most! There's many requests to take photographs with them, mostly foreigners. Hehe. i saw many friends each day!
Of course all these comes with a price. It's quite uncomfortable at times to wear a yukata and serve customers esp when you need to squat or bend down to take the products. With the heat enamating from the top, it was unbearably hot at times. And got sales target to hit! Mine was not too bad I think. cos we got to record each time we made a sale. And certain products I can earn extra if I manage to sell, but its so hard!
Halfway through my job, someone called me, a police officer had found my card holder containing all my cards =) That was super duper good news, luckily I have not report loss of my cards yet! except for the atm card =( procrastinating is good. got home in his car nearly everyday, hurray for my tired legs..
Pictures will be uploaded when I got them.. Haha..

Just last week, I started my job at SGH, its a data entry based, its all thanks to LC. Got a dinner treat from G, my god-brother. Haha it was a buffet thus we kept stuffing ourselves. pretty good stuffs.
In between theres ktv and more shopping. . . I bought a GUESS bag for my mum! Im not really into branded stuff(Maybe cos im always broke haha) but I know she wants a new bag and theres a promotion! It's totally worth it when I saw her satisfied and happy face. =)

I'm officially addicted to shopping! Maybe work is too mundane.. I really wonder whether I am suitable for office jobs. It's like super boring, being confined in a room, doing the same old things. At least being a promoter, I can actually interact with customers and relatively more challenging than sitting in a desk-bound environment. Oh well, at least I still got one more year to decide..

shall update this entry again.. <3

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